Monday, May 13, 2013
Changes
I'm running through so many conflicting emotions these days. Starting with terrible sadness and depression over losing what I thought would be forever. We were still making plans for the future as late as the holidays last year and the revelation that he was no longer interested in trying to make this marriage work was a huge surprise and a blow that I cannot begin to describe. Maybe if I had been unhappy too this wouldn't be quite so hard...
Then there is some relief. There is a part of me that knows that I will eventually be better off without him. The part that knows that I was sorely underappreciated and also the part of me that realizes that there are men out there who actually want to be with me and interested in what I have to say. It's been a very long time since I have felt like I'm important too. There is also a little bit of excitement as well because I will be finally moving back into town where I have wanted to be for a very long time. I am moving into a brand new townhome that is being built as I write this. Ok... well maybe not right now considering it is 11pm... the workers have probably gone home by now. :)
I am completely terrified about the future. There is so much unknown for me. How do I realistically trust someone now. Only a few short months ago I had no clue that I was about to be going through a divorce. Dating in general terrifies me... All of the wondering what is going through someone's brain. People tell me to not think about that but this is who I am. I can't change that about me... I am certain I will still over-analyze every person who is interested in me... This is me for better or worse. I think most of the time it is worse but again it is who I am.
For now I'm just trying hard to not feel like I've completely lost control of my life. Wish me luck because I really need it right now.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
The many faces of me
Monday, August 29, 2011
Did I really talk about it that much?
However the fact that the most traffic I get from searches on my blog involves crazy large flowers that teenagers hang around their neck for a football game always shocks me more. Below are the keywords people searched on to find me recently:
By the way, I refuse to call the crazy large flowers by name in hopes that someday it will not be the main reason people find my site.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
How my morning usually goes
However, I have a morning ritual that sometimes gets a little old. I often come out of the bathroom into the bedroom to this:
Help me get my ball out! PLEEEEEEASE!!! |
And then the process starts all over again:
Maybe if I stick my paw just a little further, I can grab it! |
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Love and Pies - A Pie for Mikey
Yesterday on many of the blogs that I follow, I started to see posts that people were titling a Pie for Mikey. They also posted the following link from Jennifer Perillo's blog called for mikey. Be prepared with tissues because it is heartbreaking. Jennie's husband collapsed and died suddenly from a massive heart attack while riding bikes with his daughter's. In an instant, he was gone and there were no goodbyes or I love you's.
The food blogging community immediately asked what they could do and she responded with what she felt would help her heal. She wanted everyone to make Mikey's favorite pie - Creamy Peanut Butter Pie. It had been on her list of thing to do but she hadn't quite gotten around to making it for him lately. She wanted everyone to make this pie and share it with the people you love.
So today that is what I did. I made a pie to honor Mikey and to share with people I love. Since my husband is out of town this weekend, I will be sharing this pie with a friend I don't see very often and with my daughter who will be leaving for college soon. As soon as my husband gets home, I'm going to make whatever food it is that he wants and loves.
Where ever you are and whatever you are doing make sure you cherish you time with the people you love. You never know when there will be no more tomorrows with them.
Creamy Peanut Butter Pie
(Recipe adapted from In Jennie's Kitchen)
Serves 10 to 12
8 ounces chocolate cookies
4 tablespoons butter, melted
4 ounces finely chopped chocolate or semi-sweet chocolate chips
1/4 cup chopped peanuts
1 cup heavy cream
8 ounces cream cheese
1 cup creamy-style peanut butter
1 cup confectioner's sugar
1 – 14 ounce can sweetened condensed milk
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
1 teaspoon freshly squeezed lemon juice
Add the cookies to the bowl of a food processor and pulse into fine crumbs. Combine melted butter and cookie crumbs in a small bowl, and stir with a fork to mix well. Press mixture into the bottom and 1-inch up the sides of a 9-inch springform pan.
Melt the chocolate in a double boiler or in the microwave. Pour over bottom of cookie crust and spread to the edges using an off-set spatula. Sprinkle chopped peanuts over the melted chocolate. Place pan in the refrigerator while you prepare the filling.
Pour the heavy cream into a bowl and beat using a stand mixer or hand mixer until stiff peaks form. Transfer to a small bowl and store in refrigerator until ready to use. Place the cream cheese and peanut butter in a deep bowl. Beat on medium speed until light and fluffy. Reduce speed to low and gradually beat in the confectioner's sugar. Add the sweetened condensed milk, vanilla extract and lemon juice. Increase speed to medium and beat until all the ingredients are combined and filling is smooth.
Stir in 1/3 of the whipped cream into the filling mixture (helps lighten the batter, making it easier to fold in the remaining whipped cream). Fold in the remaining whipped cream. Pour the filling into the prepared springform pan. Sprinkle with chopped peanuts and chocolate chips, and refrigerate for three hours or overnight before serving.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Homecoming? Really?
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Early morning conversation with my legs
Alarm: BUUUUUUZZZZZZZZ....
Me: Ok! Time to get up
Legs: No, snoozing is good
Me: But I have to go run!
Legs: We will... just let me sleep for a few more minutes
Me: But I need to get this in before I go to work. If I wait there won't be time.
Legs: Yes there will just give me 15 more minutes. Zzzzzzzz...
Me: Sigh... OK...
Alarm: BUUUUUUZZZZZZZ....
Me: Now we HAVE to get up.
Legs: No! Sleep!
Me: I'm getting up and you are coming with me whether you like it or not.
Legs: NO!!! 15 more minutes!!
(At this point, it is a toss up who will win)
Me: Alright, 15 more.
Legs: Zzzzzzzzz
Alarm: BUUUUUUZZZZZZZ...
Me: Dang it! Now I don't have time.
Legs: hehehe
Me: We are so running this afternoon!
Legs: Yeah right!
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Ads everywhere!
Is anyone else as annoyed about this as I am?
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Biggest Loser 2010 Round 2
This Biggest Loser contest went on for about 3 months and I didn't win 1st place. 1st place was taken by a guy that I'm convinced drank water and ate air for the whole time. I cannot subsist on air for more than about an hour so I ate Lean Cuisines at work and then cooked healthy dinners in the evening. I came in 2nd and won a respectable $100 or so (I don't remember the exact amount). To win 2nd place I think I dropped about 17% of my weight meaning when I decide I want to lose weight, I'm pretty good at it.
What I'm not good at is keeping it off... I have not gained all of that weight back but 8 pounds of it found me again. I blame summer and ice cream! The Biggest Loser competitions at work that I have been involved in have always been just IT people. The latest one is a whole company competition where they have asked us to gather a team of 4 people to compete rather than an individual competition. I was excited to see that we were doing this until....
I can't find a team! I was told I was too skinny. Now while most people would consider this a compliment, I see it as a challenge! I have started my own personal Biggest Loser competition. You may be wondering how this will work... What are the rules, you ask? Well, my goal is to lose more than at least two people on the team that called me too skinny. What do I win? The thrill of being right!!
I think there might be something wrong with me mentally... Oh well... whatever it takes to get me motivated I say. Now off to avoid eating ice cream and cobbler at the IT monthly birthday celebration.
Starting weight: 152.5
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Jinxed
I was always a little skeptical of her theory that the car was jinxed. Well that is until now. I'm convinced my car is jinxed. Bad stuff has been happening to it since the very beginning and I'm just about over it!
It all started out good. About 3 or so years ago the hubby and I decided I needed a more practical car. He was traveling a lot and I was often having to haul around the teenager and her friends. This is not easy to do in a Miata and I was always nervous driving around his behemoth of a truck because it was his baby.
We started looking around and I was leaning towards a Volvo C70 because if I was going to have to drive a practical car, it was at least going to be a convertible. Then the gas prices shot up to $3/gallon and we didn't know if it would stop going up... Suddenly going from a car that got around 30 miles per gallon to one that only got 21 seemed like a bad move. So we were back to the drawing board looking for practical cars with better fuel economy.
I had never been a fan of the Mini in the past but it fit all of my qualifications. Backseat... check, fuel efficient... check, fun to drive... check, convertible option... check! So we went to the Mini dealership nearby and test drove a few cars. Here is where things really started going wrong. I didn't realize it at the time but looking back it's obvious. While I was drooling over the Mini Cooper convertible, my husband kept dragging me back to the Clubman (no convertible).
Him: Look honey... there is so much space! It's so much more practical!!
Me: But there is no convertible.
Him: But we will be able to travel in it and save money on gas.
Me: But there is no convertible!!
Then there was the color. I was naturally attracted to the red and black Clubman but someone (I think it was the salesman) talked me into the blue and silver one. Certainly not an ugly car but not what I was attracted to. Basically this purchase wasn't right from the beginning but I didn't think much about it and was happy as I documented here.
I have a new car and I'm pretty happy... and then it happened. A rock hit my windshield hard and the first rock chip occurred on my windshield. It was only about month into my ownership. A week later the second one happened. Only about a month later another one happened but I didn't know about it because it was behind my rear view mirror. As I was considering getting the first two fixed, a long crack developed. I priced a new one and decided that at $600, I would live with rock chips and cracks in the windshield. There have been two more develop since then.
After several of the rock chips happened, I was driving home from meeting my friends after work. The car in front of me drove over a large piece of tire rubber and it flew up. It was the kind of big object flying at your head that makes you instinctively duck and briefly close your eyes to wait for impact. It smashed into the windshield on the passenger side with a loud smack. I opened my eyes back up fully expecting the windshield to be smashed in. It wasn't... WHEW!!! I looked to my passenger side mirror change lanes... where's my mirror??? It was GONE. Not hanging on for dear life but completely missing! I documented my experience with Mini service center in this post.
OK, so we got all of that craziness over with. Surely I've been through enough, right? Ummmmm.... spoke too soon apparently. I am accustomed to cars with trunks. I put my groceries in the trunk and all is well. This car doesn't have a trunk. It has a little space behind the backseats instead. Most of the time this little space is sufficient but sometimes I need more room so I drop the seats down and I have a massive area to carry groceries. Sounds great, right?
It is great right up until you have to make a sudden stop and all of your groceries come flying and hit the back of the front seats. It had happened several times and I had become used to this. So when it happened after a big grocery trip, I just did what I always do and picked everything up from the backseat floorboard and take it in the house. Or so I thought... Do you know how bad chicken smells when left out of the refrigerator for 3 days? I do! Oh and I also know that it takes well over a month for that smell to fade away.
It happened again with laundry detergent that flew to the front. Not a bad smell at all but when the container breaks open and spills in the other floorboard, it's not good. Do you know how hard it is to get laundry detergent out of your car's floorboard? I do (or actually my hubby does)!
So far I've had really bad chicken smell then good but overwhelming laundry detergent smell in that car. We have covered inappropriate smells in the car, right? Nope! Just a few weeks ago some sort of awful dead animal smell would occur when the air conditioner was turned on. It's Houston in July/August. Turning on the air conditioner is not optional. It's a requirement for survival. Great! Another new and exciting smell!! The smell seems to be gone now so the animal that decided to crawl into my air conditioner and die has taken it's little zombie butt somewhere else thankfully.
Adding to all of the above... the rear door inside panel falls off randomly (the dealership doesn't see any reason why), the cigarette lighter tries to disassemble itself when I remove my phone charger, the metal piece on my parking brake falls off when I engage the brake, and one tire wears funny (the dealership also can't find a cause for this other than the tire is being run low which I recently took the car in to have them check and they can't find anything wrong with the tire either).
My car is jinxed!
Monday, January 18, 2010
Help me!!!
As an added bonus Max is in his kennel in the living room where he always sleeps whining like his is being tortured. Yay! Good times!
On the upside of today, I weighed in for my biggest loser competition and I had dropped 5 pounds in a week. I know that half of that is probably water weight but I'll take it! :)
Monday, January 11, 2010
One more time
I'm probably in the worst shape I have ever been in and I want that to change! I have decided to make appointments to do things like the stairs at work and spinning classes or running. Today went well. I ate quite a bit better than normal. I did go to Starbucks but rather than the Caramel Macchiatto that I wanted, I got the Skinny Cinnamon Dulce Latte and it was really good! Then after work I went straight to the gym for a spinning class. The class was a lot of fun and I think I might be able to go at least twice a week.
Oddly enough, my coworkers decided to start the biggest loser contest again and I joined that hoping it would keep me motivated. It didn't work last time but you never know what might motivate me so I'm trying everything! :)
Friday, December 4, 2009
Favorite Christmas Recipes
Peanut Clusters
1 6-ounce package Chocolate Chips
2 6-ounce package Butterscotch Morsels
12 ounce Salted Peanuts
Heat chocolate chips and butterscotch morsels on medium 6 or 7 minutes. Stir after 3 ½ minutes. Add peanuts and drop on wax paper.
Peanut Patty
3 cups Sugar
1 cup Water
1 cup Light Corn Syrup
2 cups Peanuts, raw
1/4 teaspoon Red Food Coloring
1/2 Butter pinch Salt
Bring sugar, water, and syrup to boil. Add peanuts and color. Cook until hard ball stage. Remove from heat. Add butter and salt. Beat until mixture is too thick to beat, pour onto greased cookie sheet. Break into pieces when cool.
Grandmother Batte's Chocolate Fudge
Note: this is the best tasting fudge I've ever had but it's also the hardest fudge recipe to get correct. I cannot give any guarantees that it's going to harden up properly. However we have been known to eat it with a spoon if necessary. Oh and don't attempt this one on a humid day or it's guaranteed to not harden.
3 cups Sugar
1 cup Milk
1/3 cup Cream
5 tablespoon Cocoa
3 tablespoon Light Corn Syrup
1 tablespoon Butter
1 teaspoon Vanilla
1 cup Pecans
Combine sugar and cocoa. Stir milk and cocoa mixture in saucepan. Add Karo syrup. Stir until dissolved. Cook on low flame until soft ball stage. DO NOT STIR WHILE BOILING. Remove from heat and add butter. Cool until saucepan can be held on hand. Add vanilla and beat until creamy. Add pecans. Pour in buttered pan.
Friday, November 13, 2009
Crawfish Étouffée
I found The Cooking Bride blog which recently featured a gumbo recipe that looks pretty yummy not to mention many other recipes that looked good as well. However what I was really in the mood for étouffée. So I kept searching and ran across squirrel bread. She blogged about a foodandwine.com recipe for Shrimp Étouffée. She suggested some modifications to make the recipe more authentic. I made it into a crawfish étouffée since I have an abundance of crawfish in the freezer.
I'm not sure I want to turn this blog into a cooking blog because I want to be able to talk about whatever moves me. However, I think I want to start sharing the recipes that work out well for me. This étouffée recipe got two thumbs up from the hubby! If I get more motivated, I will try to photograph my creations in the future. Today you will have to live with just the recipe and my word. :)
Follow the link for the original recipe: Shrimp Étouffée. Below is my version:
Crawfish Étouffée
Yields: 4 Servings
Ingredients:
2 tablespoons cooking oil
2 tablespoons flour
1 1/2 cups canned low-sodium chicken broth or homeade stock
2 tablespoon Tomato paste
1 green bell pepper, chopped
2 ribs celery, chopped
2 onions, chopped
1/2 tablespoon Garlic, chopped
1 bay leaf
2 teaspoons salt
1/2 teaspoon cayenne
1/2 teaspoon fresh-ground black pepper
1/2 teaspoon dried thyme
1 1/2 pounds Crawfish
2-3 scallions including green tops, chopped
Rice, boiled or steamed
Instructions
In a large frying pan or Dutch oven, heat the oil over moderate heat until almost smoking. Add the flour and whisk until it's the color of peanut butter, about 3 minutes. Whisk in the broth and continue whisking until the sauce starts to thicken, about 2 minutes. Whisk in tomato paste.
Stir in the bell pepper, celery, onions, garlic, bay leaf, salt, cayenne, black pepper, and thyme. Bring to a simmer, cover, and cook over low heat until the vegetables are tender, about 15 minutes.
Add the shrimp and scallions and simmer until the shrimp are just done, about 3 minutes. Serve the étouffée over the rice.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Friday, September 11, 2009
Fun With Hackers
I was a little surprised to hear from her since we had pretty much lost touch after she moved back to Oklahoma except through facebook. However I'm always happy when I do get a chance to talk to her so I entered a conversation with my "friend." Here is the conversation with my friend Teri:
Teri
hey Carol!!!
you there?
12:41pm
Carol
howdy!
12:42pm
Teri
I'm in a kind of mess at the moment!!
12:42pm
Carol
whats up?
12:43pm
Teri
I'm stuck in London right now!
12:44pm
Carol
there could be worse places to be stuck I suppose... what are you doing in london?
12:47pm
Teri
I had a visit to resort on vacation in london and get mugged at a gunpoint
12:49pm
Teri
you there plz come online
12:49pm
I'm getting skeptical but I want to make sure it's not actually my friend. If it's my friend, she will ask me to call someone for her so I'm going to play along to see where this is going.
Carol
holy cow!
that's awful!
12:49pm
Teri
all cash, creditcards and my cell phone was stolen off me
i'm freaked out..\
I'm starting to anticipate that there is going to be a request for money and start googling "facebook scams." Still playing along though.
Carol
wow... I was so scared that would happen to us when we were over there. Can the embassy help?
12:52pm
Teri
yes
still thank God i still have my passport..
12:52pm
Carol
that's good... I was about to ask
where are you right now?
12:54pm
Teri
in a public liabrary
my return flight leaves few hrs from now but am having problems sorting some bills..
12:57pm
Now I know it's not my friend. Again if I was the only person she was able to contact, I could see her asking me to get in touch with her family. Now I'm just waiting for the request for money.
Teri
Carol i want you to send me few $$
1:01pm
And there it is. I want to warn my friend of her account being hacked so I run off looking for her old phone number hoping that she hadn't changed it. She had unfortunately. So I emailed her and tried to contact her on her yahoo IM to see if she is online.
Teri
?
you still there?
you still there?
1:02pm
After some discussion with the college student about how she had just heard about this scam, we decide to have a little fun with the hacker. I come back but the hacker had gone offline. I was disappointed!
Teri
?
Teri
what happened?
??
1:21pm
Hooray! The hacker comes back online but I'm not positive if it's really my friend or the hacker. If it were actually my friend she would reference the email I had sent her about the facebook hack.
Carol
what happened with what?
1:23pm
Teri
you were not talking..
1:25pm
Whew! It's the hacker! Opportunity for a little good clean fun.
Carol
Oh sorry! I was checking and I really haven't got any available cash right now! But I did call my friend, Brittany. You remember her?? She just moved to London!
1:26pm
FYI, my friend and I never had a mutual friend named Brittany.
Teri
how much can you spare me as we speak..
1:27pm
Hacker is obviously trying to get away from the discussion about our mutual friend.
Carol
I've got nothing but Brittany said she would help! Give her a call 02072431619
1:27pm
The number is a tattoo parlor in London. My apologies to Portobello Tattoos and Piercings if the hacker actually called. I'm guessing they didn't.
Teri
ok
1:28pm
Carol
Let me know how it goes!
I was hoping for some continued conversation but alas, it was not to be.
A bit later my friend really did come online to give me and I assume a few other people the following message: "Holy crap, someone hacked into my FB account. I'm not in London and I'm not being held for ransom." A bit scary for her to be hacked but it did provide me with a little bit of Friday afternoon entertainment.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
The Mister of All Weebles!
A little background... This is a video that my sister-in-law took of my niece. She is performing the dramatic spindle scene from Sleeping Beauty. I particularly like her evil laugh at the end!
In case you are not up on your Disney classics, here are the subtitles:
[Ominous music]
"Touch the spindle, touch it I say!"
"You simple fools. Thinking you could defeat me, ME, the mistress of all evil."
"Well here's your precious princess!"
[Evil laugh...]
In case you would like to do a comparison you can find a clip of the scene here:
http://www.imdb.com/video/screenplay/vi4000710681/
I may be a little biased but I like my niece's version better.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
What a difference a day makes
Monday, April 27, 2009
Recovery update week 4
Now for the good... I have lost a total of 8 pounds and have a flat stomach despite all of the swelling. I can finally walk like a normal human being most of the time rather than walking like the hunchback of Notre Dame. On a side note, maybe I should have had the surgery before I went to visit Notre Dame last month! ;) I can lie in bed without having my head propped up and pillows under my knees. I can also lay on my side and I can just about sleep on my stomach again.
A nice side effect of the surgery is that I cannot eat quite as much without it being painful anyway. So I expect to be able to lose more weight just from the lack of being able to overeat like I used to. It has not been an easy recovery by any stretch of the imagination but I am starting to feel better. This week is the first time I can honestly say that.
My recommendation for anyone considering a tummy tuck... be prepared for a tough road, and if you live in Houston make sure you try to have the surgery well before summer because these compression garments are HOT (and not in a good way)!
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Oh how I hate Mini of the Woodlands!
Somehow we were talked into one that covered the tires and rims. The nearly exact quote from the salesman was that you could slash your own tires and they would replace them no questions asked. Sounds pretty darn good! I'm really not so gullible as to believe that I could really slash my own tires and have them cover that. What I did take that to mean was that if I accidentally clipped a curb that they would replace the tire. This was important since I seem to have a knack for destroying the passenger rear tire often.
Lo and behold! I managed to clip the passenger side rear tire only about 6 months into owning the car. My husband had been on my case to take the car by to have that tire replaced and to get the 13000 mile oil change (my first because they said it could make it that long!) I had been putting this off mainly because I kept forgetting so the hubby kindly took the car to have all of the work done.
This visit did not go well at all. I should back up a little and tell you that the hubby does not trust letting a car go 13000 miles without an oil change so he has changed it a few times over the last year. So when he asked to get the tire and rim replaced and the oil changed, they refused to do both.
The tire and rim, they said, had been damaged by a curb. REALLY Mini of the Woodland? REALLY? I could have told you that but you MIGHT want to talk to your salespeople who are telling people that this $800 warranty will cover that and tire slashings!
Then they refused to do the oil change even though I have gone over 13000 miles over the last year. Why? Because the car says it's not time yet! THE CAR TOLD THEM! Apparently my husband changing my oil in between has negated them changing the oil so I have to wait even longer to get a real oil change (not that they hubby can't do it... just that he hasn't been able to find one of the filters in the car so that he can change it.)
Now my husband really hates all things MINI. He has threatened to sell my car if I don't. Thankfully the car is solely in my name and I don't believe he can get rid of it without my consent.
Oh did I mentioned that I have sent several emails to MINI USA about our dealership and not once have gotten a response? Can these car companies really afford to ignore customer complaints? I for one will never buy another MINI! So on the year anniversary of buying my MINI, I'm looking at new cars. We shall see how that turns out! I will keep you posted!
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Recovery update
The first suggestion is somewhat easy as long as my husband is not traveling. I'm bound up tight with an ace bandage so much that it's hard to take a deep breath. Her second suggestion has been a little more challenging! Have you ever tried to not use your abs? I have found that I use them quite a lot for normal daily life. So that one is not going so well.
If these two things don't help, there is another option on Tuesday when I go in to see the doctor. I will let you guess what that is since the thought of it disturbs me so very much! So far it's looking like the other option is likely.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Oh my! What have I done?
The second major surgery I had was in my junior year in college. This one wasn't emergency surgery but it wasn't waiting on finals to be over the next week either. I had finally gone for my first OB/Gyn and the doctor took one look at my abdomen and told me that I was pregnant. I insisted that I was not (I was correct) but they did an ultrasound anyway thinking that I was lying.
What they found instead of a baby was a cyst the size of a small melon. Of course it had to be removed so they scheduled surgery for a few days later. Normally a surgery like this would leave a scar that is low and not seen by most people. Unfortunately the size forced them to cut me open down the middle and this surgeon really didn't do the scar well, so it's always bothered me.
I have been wanting to do something about those scars since my late 20's. The first plastic surgeon I spoke to encouraged me to wait until after I had all the children that I wanted. There was also the lack of available funds back then. As it turns out I won't be having any children and surprisingly my company had a fabulous year and provided me with the necessary funds.
So about a couple of months ago I decided to go for it. I talked to two surgeons and chose the one I liked better and went in for a more extensive talk with my chosen surgeon, Dr. Basu. He and his staff informed me that a scar revision surgery would likely be covered by my insurance which surprised me.
I'll admit that I went into that meeting knowing that I would get something other than the scar revision. The other area that I wanted to fix was my upper thighs. Particularly my inner thighs were out of proportion with the rest of me. Even when I was super thin I had a problem there. So I was planning on getting that fixed as well.
The surprise came when the doctor asked if I had ever considered a tummy tuck. He explained to me that the best way to get rid of the noticeable scars that I have was to do a procedure with the skin similar to a tummy tuck. He explained that if he were to do that, he could remove some of the excess fat and tighten the ab muscles. So I did it... Monday.
I was released from the hospital yesterday evening and today I sit here wondering what the heck I have done to myself. The pain isn't as bad as what I expected thankfully however I cannot walk upright yet which causes my back to hurt. I also can't sleep flat yet which makes sleeping difficult in a regular flat bed.
I'm sure I will be thrilled with the results a few weeks from now but at the moment I still wonder what I've done to myself.
Friday, March 20, 2009
Really London??
Update: I was curious about the "Vote for me!" phrase on the crisps package so I went to check that out. Besides the yummy Cajun Squirrel flavor, you can also vote on Onion Bhaji, Fish and Chips, Builder's Breakfast, Chili & Chocolate, and Crispy Duck & Hoisin. I voted for the squirrel crisps because is somehow seemed right!
Monday, March 9, 2009
Missing in Action
Part of me wants to get back to sharing with everyone again but this will not be the time. All I see in front of me is at least another 2 weeks of not having time. Or maybe not... In two days I leave with the teenager and the oldest daughter to meet my hubby in Amsterdam. He is already there for business. Then he needs to be in France briefly and then London to round out the trip.
We are taking the teenager out of school for 2 days for this trip. It is a combination of her 16th birthday gift with lots of educational experience in Europe. It's not the trip I would have taken because Paris and London are lower on my list of places to go but this is where he needs to be and where she wants to go.
So we are letting her guide a lot of this trip and she is choosing to do lots of educational types of excursions... Anne Frank house in Amsterdam, concentration camps near Amsterdam, Eiffel Tower, Bastille, Notre Dame, The Louvre, of course shopping in Paris, and no real specific plans yet for London.
My true pleasure in all of this will be twofold. One that I will get to eat at some fantastic restaurants in Europe and that the teenager will have to step out of her comfort zone with food as well. She is a truly picky eater which I believe is my payback for any hell I gave my mom growing up. I have always eaten foods that most kids wouldn't and I think this is my payback to get a child who is my opposite in that respect.
Anyway, I may blog some while I'm there but that remains to be seen. Then I have a week back before there is a short leave from work that I won't go into here. I will likely be back at the blogging thing at that point.
Friday, February 20, 2009
Happy Birthday!
We will be starting at Flemings (nice steak place) with 10 of the teenager's closest girlfriends. If she had had her way, she would have invited 50 to that. Unfortunately for her we don't have $3000 laying around to waste on one meal. She decided that the girls were the only ones worth taking to a nice restaurant.
Afterwards we will be coming back to our house and will be joined by bunches of teenage boys. First on the list of things to do is the hot tub... I'm sure they will proceed to stuff 20 people in their (they proved last year that it could be done).
Then they are going to come back in at some point. If it's not too late they will proceed to watch a movie until 1am when we will be kicking out all of the boys. Some time around the start of the movie, I will be needing to send myself into a drunken stupor to deal with all of the noise! Fortunately I have already stocked up.
The next day I will be kicking out all of the girls no later then noon and working on that nasty hangover I will be sporting. Wish me luck! :D
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Tagged again!
1. How do you describe your job to others? I work on computers
2. How often do you re-wear your socks before washing? I only wear socks when I'm cycling or running for the most part. I don't think re-wearing those is a good idea!
3. What is the worse sound possible you're hearing right now? The sound of fat cells being generated after a full week of eating badly!
4. Did you have to eat the last thing you ate? I think I did. That's my story and I'm sticking to it
5. Can you drive a stick-shift, talk on the phone, eat, and cuss at other drivers at the same time? I can do all of that at the same time except for eating. I can also text while driving a stick, talking on the phone and cussing at other drivers!
6. Last person you saw on your caller-ID you didn't want to talk to but you answered anyway? Would it be wrong if that person was my husband? Actually I believe it was the annoying consultant who is the project manager for my project. My husband came in a close second today though!
7. Would you claw your way through broken glass to say hi to the person who sent this to you? The answer is no... no matter who sent it.
8. Do you have trouble remembering how old you are? Always!
9. Do you understand the point of football? Yes! Football rules!
10. Would you ever drink a Tang Martini even if it had Grey Goose in it? I'm with Trix on this one! (Why the fuck would anyone want to waste Grey Goose on Tang?????)
11. Have you ever attempted to dye your hair with Kool-Aid? No
12. Most disgusting favorite food? According to my in-laws it would be sushi. The real answer is probably escargot. I don't think the in-laws know that I like escargot yet.
13. Is there footage somewhere of you "doing it"? No
14. Does size really matter? Most of the time
15. Have you ever accidentally broken something in anger? Yes but not often.
16. Did your mom or dad ever decide to throw away all your toys because you had too many? I think I did that actually every time my mom had a garage sale. I was all about making some cashola!
18. Coconuts or Ugli fruit? I'm going with Coconuts
19. Do you get emails from a certain person who you'd rather not but you don't have the heart to tell them? Occasionally still but not often anymore. I think she has taken the hint!
22. Would you be happy living in a trailer if it was for the right guy? No... The real question is what happened to question 17, 20, and 21??
23. Have you ever cried before, during or after sex? Probably
24. Is your closet messy? Not too bad
25. Have you kept in touch with friends from Elementary? Many have contacted me on Facebook recently. Kinda funny!
26. Did you hook up last night? Not even with the hubby!
27. Are you afraid of wrinkles? Afraid? No! Annoyed? Hell yes!
28. Do you have a plain, cheesy, or spicy attitude? Cheesy
29. Favorite nationality of men? Caucasian
30. What day of the week do you usually get a craving for a hamburger? I'm with Trix on this one too (Whichever one I was drinking the night before)
31.How many states of confusion have you lived in? I stopped counting
32. Blood diamonds or Blood gold? Neither?
33. Do roses really smell like poo poo poo? I don't like roses.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Biggest loser?
Anyway, the weigh-in was disturbing especially since their scale weighs 5 pounds heavier than mine. But I'm motivated at the moment and day 1 of eating like the healthy girl I used to be went pretty well. I didn't get any exercise in today but I plan on tomorrow morning either running outside or on the treadmill if the weather isn't good.
This is going to mean big sacrifices for the skinny people living in my house. For instance, I will be cooking a lot healthier and the teenager doesn't much like to eat anything unless it's fried or covered in cheese, salt or butter (or a combination). I won't be making any of that for her at least for the next month because I have too much temptation to "taste" what I'm cooking which becomes a double helping of something I shouldn't be eating in the first place.
Then there is the cookies they like to bake... they are required to eat them all. I cannot be trusted alone with a cookie. It's hard enough for me to not eat the frozen cookie dough!
The hardest part for me will be giving up wine. I really enjoy a glass or two of wine with dinner but the reality is that I'm drinking about 300 calories. Then there is the issue of getting the munchies when I drink which usually adds another 300-400 calories to the day. So I'm limiting myself to only drinking wine with dinner on Saturday nights. I may not live through that part! Wish me luck!
Friday, January 2, 2009
Tagged!
For those bloggers that I’m going to inflict this on, here are the rules: You take your folder in which you keep your digital photos, choose the fourth folder, then the fourth picture. Explain. Tag four people.
This was at Ren Fest in Magnolia, TX. The teenager's best friend paid to have her picture taken with the "executioner." They give them different names for the picture taking. The teenager had hers done too and she was labeled "Potty Mouth Name Caller." That was a very fun day!
Now to tag my unsuspecting friends: Nonsense Words, The B.S. Cafe, Trix in the City, and The Crazy Bloggin Canuck. I look forward to seeing what random pics you guys pull up.Thursday, December 25, 2008
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Where in the world is Mrs. Squirrel Assassin?
I have decided to step up and fix the problems with our help desk at work. This is no small task because no one has bothered to help these people understand their job. I thought that I might be the right person to do this. Great you say? Well... maybe... that is if they ever find someone to take over my old tasks. Until then, I am doing both! I didn't think that this would be quite as demanding as it has turned out.
So now it's nearly impossible to take 30 minutes to put a post together during the day and with the holidays, I've been busy in the evenings as well. I'm hoping that someone will be taking over my old job very soon giving me a little less to be stressed out about. I'm not gone just resting!
Monday, November 10, 2008
Sunday, November 9, 2008
What do you say when you don't disagree
Then the subject of Christmas at my husband's family came up and it all went downhill from there. The teenager poured out her soul to me. She said that she feels like no one there really likes her there. I have observed what she is talking about. Everyone thinks that the hubby's older and younger brother's kids are perfect and can do no wrong. Our teenager is criticized for sleeping late, texting too much, and being bored all the time. Pretty much she is a normal teenager and she is being beaten up for it.
This evening was heart wrenching for me. She cried to me about how certain family members treat her like she is a bad kid and I don't know what to tell her other than they have their own personal issues and she shouldn't take it personally. But I feel like such a liar! I've witnessed the way some in that family treat her differently.
I've been treated less than well by them too and one Christmas, I refused to participate in part of it with his family because we were told that we weren't welcome to stay at one of the relative's house. That one is a long story that I did chronicle here at one time. It was one of my first posts to this blog. I chose to take it down so that no one in his family would hold it against me at a later time. But the reality is this is all based on the same issue. My hubby didn't always make the best decisions in his lifetime and his family while on the surface accepts him, thinks we are not quite as Godly or quite as good people as the rest of them. I see it from some of them every time we all get together.
So how do I comfort this girl who feels like she doesn't belong when it's her own family who makes her feel this way. She tells me it hurts when they talk bad about her mom and her middle sister. These people can be merciless when it comes to that topic. How do I tell her that she needs to spend time with these people when I know exactly how she feels when she says she doesn't want to go?
I sit here filled will extreme emotion because I can't fix it and the hubby still loves his family. I feel stuck in the middle trying to comfort a girl that has done nothing to deserve this. I really don't know what to do.
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Weight Loss Update - "Well that didn't go as planned" Edition
Minutes ran today: | 33:57 |
Miles "ran" today: | 3.5 |
Total miles run: | 30.92 |
Weight loss: | 2 lb weight gain |
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Weight Loss Update - The "Houston, We have a problem" Edition
Minutes ran today: | 33:57 |
Miles ran today: | 3.0 |
Total miles run: | 27.42 |
Weight loss: | 2 lb weight gain |
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Weight Loss Update - The Slacker Edition
Minutes ran today: | 46:10 |
Miles ran today: | 4.0 |
Total miles run: | 24.42 |
Weight loss: | 1.8 lb weight gain |
Friday, October 31, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
And I lived through it yet again
The monsterous mum!
The only way a guy can look manly wearing a boy mumIsn't she adorable?
Gotta love the sunglasses and Vans on her date
Goofy pose
Group photo
Pole dancing so young in life!
Weight loss update
Minutes ran today: | 25:00 |
Miles ran today: | 2.4 (this is approximate since my GPS watch chose to die in the middle of the run) |
Total miles run: | 20.42 |
Weight loss: | 1.4 lb weight GAIN! |
Friday, October 24, 2008
Weight Loss Update - The "Oops I did it again" edition
Minutes ran today: | 30:00 |
Miles ran today: | 2.71 |
Total miles run: | 18.02 |
Weight loss: | 0.2 lb |
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
The Evil Stepmother
"Becoming a stepmother redefined who I am, and nothing I did could resist that inexorable redefining. I suppose motherhood redefines who you are, too. Part of the redefinition of me has been just that--sitting on the bench with the row of anxious mothers at the little league game or at martial arts. Going to school and being Adam's mother. Being Adam's mom. It has made me suddenly feel middle-aged in funny ways. I used to go through the grocery line and buy funky things like endive, a dozen doughnuts, a bottle of champagne and two tuna steaks. Now I buy carts full of cereal and hamburger and juice boxes. I used to buy overpriced jackets and expensive suits. Now I go to Sears and buy four sweat shirts and two packages of socks in the boys department."
"When I bought endive and champagne, the check out clerk used to ask me what I was making. But no one asks you what you are making when you buy cereal and hamburger."
I think that has been the hardest thing about becoming a stepmom. Overnight, the gourmet cooking that I love so very much was out the window and suddenly casseroles are a weekly part of my life. I don't really have the budget for the stylish clothes I used to have either. I can't say that I shop at Sears but I shop more bargains like never before. I sometimes miss the old me who had no one but my dogs to take care of. Now I'm the one responsible to make sure everyone is fed a healthy meal, gets everywhere on time, and apparently to keep track of everything the hubby has misplaced. It's exhausting sometimes and upsetting that the hubby doesn't understand why it's exhausting.
Anyway, it's an interesting essay if you want to read it:
The Evil Stepmother
Monday, October 13, 2008
Weight Loss update - Week 2 (I've been motivated!)
Minutes ran today: | 31:10 |
Miles ran today: | 2.66 |
Total miles run: | 7.39 |
Weight loss: | 1.0 lb |
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Weight Loss Update - Week 2
Minutes ran today: | 27:10 |
Miles ran today: | 2.33 |
Total miles run: | 4.73 |
Weight loss: | 0.4 lbs (at least it didn't go up!) |
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Teenagers... are they really that stupid?
Since my teenager was going to an overnight birthday party and the hubby was out hunting, I decided to pack up and head to my friend's house last night. It got late and I just decided to stay there until the next morning rather than drive home. I got up really early to head home and take care of my dogs.
As I'm driving through the neighborhood I come upon a guy walking down the middle of the street thumbing a ride and very obviously drunk. I keep going and turn down my cul-de-sac and find out where he had originated from. All up and down my street there were beer cans, cigarette packages, and fast food bags. There was also a strange car parked in front of the house.
I park the car in the garage and walk out to pick up the trash that was in front of my house when I hear someone beating on a door. That is when I noticed the Harris County Sheriff's department car at the end of the cul-de-sac. He was beating on the door and yelling for the occupants to open the door.
I picked up the trash and threw it away and then headed to the backyard to make sure there are no foreign objects in the pool. It wouldn't be the first time that has happened to us. Luckily the pool came out of the incident unscathed so I went back in to let my dogs out.
I take them out to the front yard as usual and the cop is STILL beating on the door. I watch for a bit while the dogs were busy and then put them back inside. I stay outside because I'm curious about what has happened. At this point he gave up and decided to leave. I flagged him down to talk and he tells me that the kids down the street had a party and apparently had it all over the street too. He says that he's trying to talk to the parents and asked that I call him when they get home.
At this point I'm thinking it's pretty much over. Oh how wrong I was! People keep showing up off and on to the house presumably to pick up stuff that they had left when the cops showed up around 3am.
Then suddenly the teenager runs down the stairs saying that there was someone screaming outside. We peek at the "party house" and don't see anyone but we could still hear the screaming. So I figured it was time to let the dogs out to do their business again so I could be nosy more easily.
When I go outside, I figure out where the screaming is coming from... there is a girl at the front of the house next to the "party house" yelling for Jessica to let her in. This girl is ranting and raving because Jessica wouldn't let her in. The teenager and I watch for a bit after going back in and laugh about it right up until the girl picks up a large object from the garden and looks like she is about to hurl it at a window.
I decide for my neighbor's sake I should do something to stop her since they were obviously not home. So I run out there and yell at her that she's at the wrong freaking house and to stop beating on people's door. The girl gets an oops look on her face and goes to the correct house were Jessica presumably let her in.
As soon as I see the parents, my new buddy Rocky (Harris County Sheriff) will get a call and pay the parents a visit. So I guess back to my original question... are teenagers really that stupid? Do they think they are going to get away with big underage drinking parties in the parent's house without them eventually finding out? They must be!
Friday, October 3, 2008
Temporary change
During the last few years of hunting season the hubby was actively pursuing his MBA which curbed a lot of his hunting. This year there are no impediments to the pursuit of the perfect deer (buck or doe... he's doesn't discriminate). The hubby works out of town most weeks and then will be hunting many weekends. I will truly be a widow for a while.
Stay tuned for reports and potentially pictures of this weekend's "kill."
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Weight Loss Update - Day 1
FYI, I am going to try to make these posts pretty regularly so that I can keep up with my progress and hold myself accountable. They won't be even remotely interesting most of the time. For that I apologize but these posts are to try to get me motivated more than anything. Here's hoping that it works....
Minutes ran today: | 28:20 |
Miles ran today: | 2.4 |
Total miles run: | 2.4 |
Weight loss: | 0.4 lbs (small but it made me happy anyway) |
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Yes folks! It's that time of the year again!
Not my proudest moment
Why you ask? Well there are tons of reasons why it's hard to work out and eat right. Partly it's because I leave my house before it's light outside and get home about the time that dinner needs to be made for the family. My hubby thinks that I should just stop cooking but if I did, the teenager would eat ramen, mac&cheese, burritos or pizza rolls for every meal. There wouldn't be a fruit or vegetable get near her otherwise. And since I get home so late, I often whip up something quick and not quite on the diet. I try not to eat it but most of the time it's just so tasty that I can't resist.
Then there is the fact that I'm just plain wiped out when I get home. Mostly I want to eat and relax in the evenings. I'm better at running in the mornings when I'm completely refreshed. This poses a problem as well. I'm the morning person and the hubby is a night owl. He has a hard time letting me sleep so I am getting less sleep than I have since cramming for finals in college.
Well those are my current excuses but I have to do something to turn this around. I'm doing something even if it means sleeping on the couch when the hubby is home so that I can have more than 4 hours of sleep a night. I going to get back into the shape I was last year at this time if it kills me.
So your job as my faithful bloggy friends is to kick my butt and keep me honest. Ask me often how the workout is coming along and how much healthier I am cooking for the whole family. If I can't give you a satisfactory answer, make me run some laps! That'll teach me!